It's the kind of desperation you get when, in that split second, whether your card is a Black Ace of Clubs or a Red Queen of Hearts, could determine you in heaven or hell for your next reincarnation. And from that desperation you would find yourself grasping and holding onto every strand of chopessibility (chance/hope/possibility pronounced chope-si-bility) available in stock. Myth, superstition, or just another story; doesn't matter. You're desperate. You don't want one way or the either, and you don't care what it's gonna take, you're gonna be sure to win this. Oh yeah baby, I'm racing fate to the finish line. Prepare to EAT DIRT.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Puh-lease
You really shouldn't be playing with fire. You never know when you'll get burned. Since when did you think you could waltz in and take it away. You will never be able to so please do us both a favour, and fuck off.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
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sometimes, it's best to just shut your mouth instead of saying shit that might affect others --'
rid
I swear it isn't a coincidence; it always freakin happens at those times, and when i say always, i mean always. I don't get what made you think i should slow my pace when really, i'm falling behind. I've never felt more helpless with myself. Ofcourse, it is next to impossible to achieve without sacrifice. I think i know what must be sacrificed in this chapter.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
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i would try but like i said, i will need motivation. if there's someone who can't be fucked, it turns me off... seriously.
Not bothered to think up a fancy title.
Okay I'll be frank. Everyone's been moody and sad and what not. Okay. But if you're going to say you're going to try and change that, then at least pretend you're okay. You know why? Because then you make other people feel happier because it's someone else being happy which makes them smile. And then it can lead to YOU being potentially being happier because a smile is contagious. Don't just be all words and no action. Don't get other people pumped up for something that won't happen and CERTAINLY don't get people's hopes up when you won't even bother trying. Because afterwards, your words leave them crippled and basically fend for themselves on an emotional basis. Don't hide yourself away when you wanna change things cause you know what? It ain't gonna change, at least for the better. I understand how you guys feel but honestly, there's just so much that people can actually stand. You guys use to complain about a particular someone right? Well guess what, sort becoming that particular person in your own ways. That's really I can bother to type for the moment.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
more beautiful you
so turn around, you're not too far. To back away, be who you are.
To change your path go another way. It's not too late you can be saved.
If you feel ashamed with past regrets. The shameful nights hope to forget.
Can disappear, they can be washed away. By the one who's strong, can right your wrongs.
Can rid your fears, dry all your tears. and change the way you look at this big world.
He will take your dark distorted view and with his light he will show you truth.
And again you will see through the eyes of a little girl or boy
more beautiful you - johnny diaz
QUESTION.
i'm starting to wonder if it will even happen. so, what do you think?
Faulting
Often misery we bring upon ourselves. It may not have seemed like our fault, we may not have done it on purpose, but before throwing the blame, ask yourself, could it have happened without you? Before you blame a rock on the footpath for almost tripping you over, think, was it really that rocks fault? Could it not have been yours for not seeing it there in the first place and avoiding it? Does that sound stupid to you? Put it in a life instance, your partner breaks your heart, leaves you cheated, hurt, and broken. Indeed they were wrong for mistreating you, but would you not have fault in it? For, well, falling in love, taking on such a relationship, in the first place? I don't know, it probably does sound stupid. I'm just being thoughtful. And trying to find ways to not get pissed off -at people- so easily... don't mind me.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
count on me.
if you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, i'll sail the world to find you
if you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see, i'll be the light to guide you
find out what we're made of, cause we are called to help our friends in need.
you can count on me like one, two, three. i'll be there
&& i know when i need it i can count on you like four, three, two and you'll be there
cause that's what friends are suppose to do oh yeahh
count on me - bruno mars
i've decided to try and stop thinking negatively. it's too tiring for my head and makes me wnr just ... well depends on what i'm thinking about LOL. so from now on, i will try to be optimistic. TRY. i think everyone should try it :D sure does relieve your mind in a way.
count on me. it's such a cute song && i love it's meaning (: well that song is my song to all you people :D though i didn't write it or sing it or contribute anything to the making of it >> BUT ahwelps (: lets pretend i did.
kim (:
WEEE!!
HEHE I'M HAPPY TODAY ^^ I had 11 hours of sleep! and I found out something hehe ^^ WEEE >
J
Friday, August 13, 2010
@ incomplete...
why are colours begin to fade away?
once so bright but now they've lost a shade
but who knows what could make them change
so now we gotta find a way to make those colours stay.
colors - christopher
i look at that picture and try to make it out. but what's there? i have no idea. i used to love putting together puzzles (i still do!) i loved the satisfaction of seeing the end result (: the puzzles sure killed my head. sometimes i would get headaches and sometimes i would even plan to give up. but soon i came back and tried putting it back. wonder why i didn't come back this time... this puzzle might be harder to put together than the ones i've done. but i guess first step (& imo the hardest?) would be opening up to each other. but who ever said it was not possible ? let's give it a shot and this time actually try, cause i've only been half-assing it. i'll be needing motivation though >>
-insert end- (: <---- john's suggestion LOL
kim.
Total Agreement
Post under this, full on backed, but yea it is difficult to do that but I guess we could give it a try. A puzzle only fits when it has the right number of pieces right? No more no less. We don't really talk anymore about how we're really feeling. I'll take a stab at letting it out right now. Fight with Edbert has left me not in the mood for the whole day, making me a complete jerk today. Sorry to all those I told off or raged at. The other thing that has bugged me for a whole has been going on for a few months now but I don't know if that'll actually get solved, most you guys know about it already anyway and if you don't...well send a skype message? I'll try go music room less after I get my NEW KEYBOARD!!! Compliments to Jason Lu !!!1 ^_^ But yea, I haven't spent time with you guys and I'm sorry.
J
Incomplete
It started as an 8 piece puzzle. Each piece had a different colour, a different look, but the 8 pieces, when together, they matched up perfect. It was complete. Something happened but. Something happened. Most of the colours faded, then the puzzle began to break and the pieces scattered all across the floor, some here some there. It just isn't complete anymore. And, no ones doing anything about it. Every piece is drowned in its own freakin problems, every piece has a different reason for losing their bright colour, every piece is keeping to them freakin selves; ignorant and all. Sure, maybe they do want to change it, but that isn't gonna happen if every pieceone doesn't cooperate. Guys we need to talk, again.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
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School was fun(!) Very fun. I mean, w-ow, no one was looked upset or depressed or pissed, or anything. No awkward looks, no dull feelings, no blank atmospheres, nothin! Look around and all you see is genuine happiness, listen around and all you hear is the sound of laughter. And adding the warmth of the sun we were under... It was just...you know.. great. Noo what chu saying, i'm not being sarcastic at all.
Oh! and also, to top the horribly great day off, guess what?! I GOT MY NEW YORK TICKETS<3 MUAHAHAA. Seeeeee? BEST DAY EVER.
:)
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
dear mr. optimism
where are you ? i haven't seen you for quite a while now. i think i kinda miss you... no wait, i know miss you. i want you back, i'm sure everyone does. so, will you come back ?
from kim.
I don't miss you
I find myself frequently reminiscing of you. You weren't the closest friend, or the nicest, or the most trust-able, but put it like this, you were, i guess, a favourite. You were the one person i looked up to; cool, smart, pretty, funny, neat, almost flawless. Someone i really wished i could be. I wouldn't say your mocking didn't irritate, or your non humoured put-downs didn't hurt, but vise versa, you couldn't guess how much a small compliment or praise from you meant to me. I'm not exaggerating a bit, but perhaps i'm raising you a little overly high. I'd say i miss you, but then i don't. Our friendship didn't snap, but simply faded as though it had never happened. I remember the beginning of the year, i'd still say hi whenever i saw you. Then I remember when a friend asked me why you ignore us now, and suggesting that maybe we weren't good enough any more. I don't know, but it's been a while since we've looked each other in the eye. And the cold, distant expression you had is lingering on me...
No i really don't miss you. I'm just thinking of you.
lucy.
Monday, August 9, 2010
my old self.
i used to think about how much i missed my old self, how much i wanted my old self back. but now i think back and wonder, what is my old self? who is the real me? i've been living so many lies and now, i don't know who i am. who am i? i seriously don't know. i've completely lost myself..
fake.
fake smiles. bruh, i'm sick of them
Saturday, August 7, 2010
can't say
it's not like i don't trust you. it just feels like i can't trust anyone. maybe there's something stopping me from telling. maybe i lack the confidence. i've never been able to completely tell a person what's wrong. i've always told half truths and excuses. it's just that sometimes, it's not easy to say...
SEVERELY~~~ I LOVE YOU :) 
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Eat dirt!
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